If you attend Mary Washington and have never been to a women’s rugby game, you’ve missed out on greatness.

As we begin our spring season, we have many things to worry about such as fund raising, new uniforms , Nationals and so forth.  I wish I could say that I’m dedicated and 100% all about rugby, but my mind is elsewhere.  Lately, it doesn’t matter how much I try to stay a part of the team, it just doesn’t feel the same anymore.  It’s missing that shine, the appeal and most importantly, I’ve given up on proving myself as a player.  My coach doesn’t teach me and so if he does play me at the position I prefer, he just judges my mistakes instead of guiding me.  I’ve NEVER received good advice from him… okay I lie, maybe thrice. One good comment per year I’ve played?  1. Kick like this (then he teaches me to properly aim) 2. Time your run 3. Don’t get sucked in.  That’s seriously the most help I’ve received from him.  I’ve built from my teammate’s comments, on my experience from playing… but I don’t find it rewarding anymore.  I also keep getting hurt.  At first I practically tore an elbow, then I had knee pains, then reoccurring elbow pain and most recently my rotator cuff.  I should just give up and stop this nonsense but I love the team.

It’s harder to quit a team when the people you leave behind make up 14564% of your friends at school.  The girls on the team are fabulous.  Honestly, I would’ve have stuck around those first cold weeks (I joined in the spring season, which means January in reality) had they not been so welcoming.  Some people are able to detach themselves, but they tend to already come with the flaw of commitment.  Even though I remain an officer for this team, I think I should stop playing and dedicate those 10 hours that I dedicate to rugby during the weekdays to school work.  Never mind those entire Saturdays.

Saturday’s a rugby day.

On that note, we don’t have rugby games ’till February.  I have ’till then to decide my life.  The deciding factor will be my shoulder and my school work.  I mean… that’s all my life is basically. Oh well…