Let me start off by saying I am totally not supposed to be writing this. To say things got out of hand quickly would be an understatement. I’m supposed to be laying low and staying out of the spotlight in every way possible but days like this make it impossible.
I was looking though a box of old keepsakes the other day and came across an old postcard of Nashville.
I’d give anything to go back to Nashville right now. I’ve loved that city with all my heart. Besides music, Nashville has always been my one true love. But unfortunately I cannot go back there and haven’t been able to for sometime now.
Now some of you might be wondering where I have been for the last few months. Just three months ago I was out touring the world and loving every second of it. It’s still hard for me to look back at all the videos and moments that I had on tour. It was one of the best moments of my life and I would do anything to get those days back
I mean seriously less than three months ago I was traveling everywhere on this tour. I had seen just about every state in the country and was only a few weeks away from going all over. This map shows all of the places that I went in North America. I was about to leave and travel all over the world.
But now I’m stuck here. In the middle of nowhere. I wish I could tell you were I am. I really do. I know that some of you are truly great. I always said that the fans were the best part of my job. But if I told you were I was that would mean yet another new identity for me. And weirdly the witness protection program doesn’t like handing out new identities every other week. I can show you a couple postcards I’ve collected from the last few cities that I have been assigned to (because I’ve moved quite a few times since these):
Weirdly enough Chicago didn’t last long (whoever thought that putting a former pop star in such a big town was probably not the smartest) and that town in Mississippi was anything but fun. I do not consider myself the type of person who has to live in a big city but if the entrance to your city literally says “Small Town Mississippi” it might be a little to small for me (or anyone).
I’ve also had to undergo quite a few dramatic changes to help stay undercover. I’m not really supposed to share pictures (just like I’m not really supposed to be writing this) but I’ve undergone at least three makeovers since this one so it’s not like you could track me down now from these pictures anyways.
Who would have thought I would go through an emo/grunge phase? Certainly not me. Living in the witness protection program makes you do a whole heck of a lot of things you never imagined yourself doing. Maybe that’s what makes your placement successful. Doing the exact opposite of what you ever would do otherwise and what no one would ever expect.
So you might be wondering what made me finally break my silence and check in with you all. I happened to come across the official Taylor Swift message boards the other day and I was blown away by how many of you had commented and were genuinely concerned about where I was or how I was doing. This site all but killed me. All I can say is that you all are the greatest fans in the entire world.
This part in particular brings me to tears every time that I look at it:
While I cannot tell you where I am, why I am in hiding, or how long I am going to remain in hiding I can tell you that I am fine. And that I miss each and everyone of you dearly. My life has been forever changed by the events that happened a few months ago and I would give anything to get back to where I was before that.
I’m not sure when I’ll be able to write (or how long I’ll be able to leave this up). But I’m grateful for each and everyone of you and hope to see you all soon.